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6 Nov'04
1st Service of the month:
Today was quite a different day, somehow I feel something good is going to happen. Before service, I start to feel have a little awakward feeling when I saw my Leader walking up the stairs to where our CG is sitting (The Slope sittings, South West of the stage): which 'It' tells that she's pregnant.
The first thought that ask back is an 'er... ... serious'. Then nevermind, I believe the CG will know soon, when announce.
This week is also Holy Communion week and I believe that something great is going to happen during service; and it is true, God's Spirit filled the whole auditirum, like what it describe in Acts 2.
After the Service, the truth is reveal to everyone~ ! ! ~ And it seems that I knew it before announcement, it's like the Spirit have spoken the mystries which not many knew yet. The first reaction I had is telling myself, "you must be joking to myself." I fell into a disbelieve that I had actually foretell in Spirit to know something before hand~ ~ ! ! But, what must come, still have to come.
8 Nov'04
Prayer meeting week:
During the prayer meeting, somehow I visualize what I really yearn for, which seems that only He can give; His embrace, His Love. I'd seen in a vision of Him giving me a very warm hug, which filled up that empty heart in me that is yearning for a deep sense of love which I am looking for. No man or woman can touch that place which is missing in my heart, except Him. Ever since Pst Mike Conner's visit to our Church, I really felt Him filling up that gap (that is love) in my heart. And I have to confess that I've been looking for such love, which I now find in Him. I felt the love and embrace; I can't run away from it (Even though that I have been running away from what God wants me to be.)
Somehow I too know that I can't share such intimacy feeling with others.
Agape