Location: At Home
To: Unknown Location
17 Dec'04
Whoo... haven't been updating quite often, ha ha... well don't worry about me, I'm doing fine. Things are working great at home, less trouble now. I guess it's a time of reconciliation back home. The one great thing I can share is; God is always Faithful, even when sometimes you fail to be Faithful to Him, but it does not mean you can take it for granted.
Still, I'm waiting for my final examination result; either a pass or fail will decide the next 1 month - which is either to the army or to repeat another 6 months.
I believe that both won't really affect me, but I do pray for a pass for the paper and quickly finish serving the army, and maybe by God's grace, things in the future will change for the good - if you know what I mean (The problem which is still a stumbling block to me.)
On the 11th Dec, which is a Sunday, I went out with the Isaiahians, cuz we won the first prize for the Zone Outing - a $120 Sweenson Voucher. The team that were present that day: Brendon (team leader), Debby and a brother - both (E168), Elijah (Sis Docas's younger brother), Michelle (from Bro. Vic's CG, now multiplied), 3 other little girls (2 of them from my CG), 'her' and of course me. Well, too bad Colin isn't there... ha haha... He's serving the army now in TEKONG BMTC 1 ! ! ! :p
The day begins as we were 'suppose' to meet at 1pm at Bugis MRT, then Brendon pass down for a change in time to 12noon, cuz Brendon have to go by 1pm. So I reach there 15mins early and so I decided to msg 'her' if 'she' had already reach or if anyone is there. Then as I was about to turn around, 'she' appeared from behind waving 'her' hand at me. Then I was surprise of that. Also that day, 'she'd also asked me to help 'her' chose for a guitar to purchase.
Then both of us did chat a bit (not much). I guess it takes time to accept the fact that I love 'her' or did the rumour something about me going after Candy... ... duh... Thx to JX and another rumour about me leaving Church... ... also Thx to Mitch. Both of them seem to 'spread' the rumour to 'her' ears, which I was very surprised when 'she' asked me if I did ask Candy out for a movie with some other friends, and about me backsliding???? ! ! ! ! Duz... ... Guys, I got to be clear on this: I will no matter keep my word. I have promise to wait for 'her' completing 'her' studies and 'her' reply if 'she' wants to be with me or not.
To clearify, I was asking Candy out to fellowship and take chance to council her and bring reconciliation between her and the CG. I do know that she have a tough time whether to return to CG or not, but I believe through working a friendship to bring her back, not just telling her to return straight away.
The thing is that, if she does not want to be in W261 under Ange, no matter how much you push in, she won't turn back. For me, I believe in one management: For the best of someone's growth, put him/her under someone whom he/she is able to communicate through.
Ok back to main topic. So I talked with 'her' (not much, only little to say) Then the brother from E168 came (Forgotten his name... aiya...) Then Elijah came and there's more noise to be heard... ... ha haha... we have a great excitment to know each other, 'she' called for Debby then she came and the coner we stand, become more noisier... ha haha... . Then Brendon arrive and the 2 little girls from my CG. One discovery is that, I find them quite 'attach' to 'her', hmm... cuz usually, both of them would be quite quiet. Then we proceed to Sweenson Cafe at Bugis and we found a place to settle our group.
Then all of us have a hard time choicing what to eat... ha ha... well, in the end we'd all ordered baked rice lol... except for Elijah, who chose Fish and Chips. Then came the food. Then we finish our saying grace and start eating. Then Brendon's way for Fellowshipping comes, which is a really seems more like a diciplining meeting - hmm... ... that's how I feel. Then Michelle came... late... by 15mins if I'm not wrong. A while later the other little girl, whom I still don't know from which CG, came: the sad thing is that, most of us have finish our food and she have to eat alone...
Still, I do enjoy the meeting. We have photo taking in groups with the help from Sweenson's staff. And lastly, Ice CREAMS! ! ! :x
So all the things cost us $130+ dollars along with the service charge. Then Brendon left to do some staff. The 3 little girls also left for home. I'd promise her ealier to go with 'her' to chose a guitar - 'her' budget range within SGD$100. The others also join us, since they to don't know where to go next. Michelle have StrikeForce training later as well, so all of us walked to City Hall to Peninsular Plaza: Our first stop, Davis Guitar - which most often CHC members would go to, Bro. James also go there, and I heard he have a special 20% discount for his purchase.
I'd asked 'her' what guitar does 'she' wants: either Classical or Acoustic. at first, 'she' was chosing Acoustic, then the price of the Acoustic seems to stop 'her'. Then on the Classical side, all of us have comments about it. So 'she' decided to stick to Acoustic. As we look for the guitars, all of us have a try of it, listening to the sound, and knowing if it's worth it. I only have one comments: that is if you like the sound of the guitar, just purchase it, it's the most simple thing for those who are learning.
'She' found a guitar which I do know 'she' seems to like it, but it cost $100, Fina Acoustic. Just right amount, but adding a good guitar bag, it's $138 - that hinders her, I know that, but I'm ready to pay part of it for 'her'. I find that the Lord is true on one thing, "Where your treasure is, ther also is your heart.' Pst. Kong also amplified it in his life, which on service that day, he preach it to the whole Church - he shared that if's just like him spending most of his money on Pst. Sun, his wife, one reason, because he loves her.
It's very true that where you spend most of your money at, that's your first love. I was very touch by that message. With Rev. John's visit to our church, I realize about the Jehovah Jireh (The place of where you have made your faith in, which is not one of God's name.)
I too have faith that what is between me and 'her', will be a long run, it won't be easy, that's what I know, but I know something will happen for a change.
Back to topic: So we thanked the uncle and went to another guitar shop look around, then another, and another (all in that area.) Still we find none of the guitar there really meet 'her' range, but Elijah seems to have the fun of some 'showing off' on his skills, ha ha ha... ... well don't forget who his teacher is - Bro Cliff and his sister.
I know that the $100 will fit for her for that moment, then finally, I asked 'her' if 'she' do like that guitar, if so, just buy it. When we return to Davis, the guitar was sold to another person, then the uncle tell us that he'll get another one for us. Then I shared with the guys about the Fina 2003 and like what Bro. James recommanded it to us as the best budget acoustic guitar.
A while late, the uncle return with the Fina guitar, which 'she' wants. Then to do a final sound result, Michelle tried the guitar and listen to the sound: she to was impress by that guitar, but the Fina 2003 impresses all of us, comparing the quitlity of sound. Still, the $100 Fina Acoustic will do for 'her' to practice and train. Thank God for that. 'She' took out the cash which all 'she' have, then short of $5, then I was already prepare to take out my wallet: Michelle gave a comments saying, "whaa... you so brother ah...". Debby also comment about it. Still we're glad that 'she's able to have the guitar. Praise the Lord for it.
At the mean time, Michelle also purchase some picks. Then for 'her' to pay for the guitar. So I offered to carry it for 'her', then Michelle starts to comment again... well... I can only say that I do it out of love.
So as we were about to go by Long John Silver, we'd decided to settle there for a moment. The guys have a short 'tea' break there as well. Then a surprise visitor makes his appearence: ISAAC! ! ! We're all very surprise of him coming in saying 'hi' to us... ha ha ha... Then after a short chat, he left for his 'walk' around. Elijah kept on making some joyful noise which really makes us laugh about.
Then we took some photos again (when Isaac was there with us, he help us took some photos before leaving.) After that, we return to each of our later journey, Michelle went with Elijah for the East train, the brother going with along for Outram Park to change North East line. I decided to accompany 'her' all the way to 'her' block. Debby was with us.
Then all of us have a hard time choicing what to eat... ha ha... well, in the end we'd all ordered baked rice lol... except for Elijah, who chose Fish and Chips. Then came the food. Then we finish our saying grace and start eating. Then Brendon's way for Fellowshipping comes, which is a really seems more like a diciplining meeting - hmm... ... that's how I feel. Then Michelle came... late... by 15mins if I'm not wrong. A while later the other little girl, whom I still don't know from which CG, came: the sad thing is that, most of us have finish our food and she have to eat alone...
Still, I do enjoy the meeting. We have photo taking in groups with the help from Sweenson's staff. And lastly, Ice CREAMS! ! ! :x
So all the things cost us $130+ dollars along with the service charge. Then Brendon left to do some staff. The 3 little girls also left for home. I'd promise her ealier to go with 'her' to chose a guitar - 'her' budget range within SGD$100. The others also join us, since they to don't know where to go next. Michelle have StrikeForce training later as well, so all of us walked to City Hall to Peninsular Plaza: Our first stop, Davis Guitar - which most often CHC members would go to, Bro. James also go there, and I heard he have a special 20% discount for his purchase.
I'd asked 'her' what guitar does 'she' wants: either Classical or Acoustic. at first, 'she' was chosing Acoustic, then the price of the Acoustic seems to stop 'her'. Then on the Classical side, all of us have comments about it. So 'she' decided to stick to Acoustic. As we look for the guitars, all of us have a try of it, listening to the sound, and knowing if it's worth it. I only have one comments: that is if you like the sound of the guitar, just purchase it, it's the most simple thing for those who are learning.
'She' found a guitar which I do know 'she' seems to like it, but it cost $100, Fina Acoustic. Just right amount, but adding a good guitar bag, it's $138 - that hinders her, I know that, but I'm ready to pay part of it for 'her'. I find that the Lord is true on one thing, "Where your treasure is, ther also is your heart.' Pst. Kong also amplified it in his life, which on service that day, he preach it to the whole Church - he shared that if's just like him spending most of his money on Pst. Sun, his wife, one reason, because he loves her.
It's very true that where you spend most of your money at, that's your first love. I was very touch by that message. With Rev. John's visit to our church, I realize about the Jehovah Jireh (The place of where you have made your faith in, which is not one of God's name.)
I too have faith that what is between me and 'her', will be a long run, it won't be easy, that's what I know, but I know something will happen for a change.
Back to topic: So we thanked the uncle and went to another guitar shop look around, then another, and another (all in that area.) Still we find none of the guitar there really meet 'her' range, but Elijah seems to have the fun of some 'showing off' on his skills, ha ha ha... ... well don't forget who his teacher is - Bro Cliff and his sister.
I know that the $100 will fit for her for that moment, then finally, I asked 'her' if 'she' do like that guitar, if so, just buy it. When we return to Davis, the guitar was sold to another person, then the uncle tell us that he'll get another one for us. Then I shared with the guys about the Fina 2003 and like what Bro. James recommanded it to us as the best budget acoustic guitar.
A while late, the uncle return with the Fina guitar, which 'she' wants. Then to do a final sound result, Michelle tried the guitar and listen to the sound: she to was impress by that guitar, but the Fina 2003 impresses all of us, comparing the quitlity of sound. Still, the $100 Fina Acoustic will do for 'her' to practice and train. Thank God for that. 'She' took out the cash which all 'she' have, then short of $5, then I was already prepare to take out my wallet: Michelle gave a comments saying, "whaa... you so brother ah...". Debby also comment about it. Still we're glad that 'she's able to have the guitar. Praise the Lord for it.
At the mean time, Michelle also purchase some picks. Then for 'her' to pay for the guitar. So I offered to carry it for 'her', then Michelle starts to comment again... well... I can only say that I do it out of love.
So as we were about to go by Long John Silver, we'd decided to settle there for a moment. The guys have a short 'tea' break there as well. Then a surprise visitor makes his appearence: ISAAC! ! ! We're all very surprise of him coming in saying 'hi' to us... ha ha ha... Then after a short chat, he left for his 'walk' around. Elijah kept on making some joyful noise which really makes us laugh about.
Then we took some photos again (when Isaac was there with us, he help us took some photos before leaving.) After that, we return to each of our later journey, Michelle went with Elijah for the East train, the brother going with along for Outram Park to change North East line. I decided to accompany 'her' all the way to 'her' block. Debby was with us.
We were surprise to find that the North train have alot of people, so we decided to go South to Marina and hop to a new train towards the North. We too find the cults of Jehovah Witness. So I shared with them about the encounters and why Jehovah Witness are not consider as Christians. Then later we each have our sharing towards the view. Debby too have some confusion about the tithe and offering, but I treat tithing is too the Lord not to the Church - just like what the people in the Old covenant do. Offering goes the same: if you do tithing and offering because you are a member of a Church, rather, don't do it, it will only make you feel like the church owe you something, but the truth: all of us owe God everything, but He just want to see that we give back the 10% of what is His back to Him.
We're just steward of His money. But I was glad of the sharing section. We reach Khatib then we bid Debby goodbye. I walked 'her' along then 'she' told that 'she' can go alone, but I did not do as 'she' say, instead, I walked 'her' home along listening to what I'd missed out in 'her' life. I felt great in my heart about that walk, even though it's a short distance. Then come to the departing moment when reach 'her' block and I gave 'her' guitar back; to confess, that moment, I really felt like giving 'her' a big hug, showing 'her', I do treasure 'her' accompany along my Walk.
That's still the stumbling block which I find it very hard to overcome.
Agape.
We're just steward of His money. But I was glad of the sharing section. We reach Khatib then we bid Debby goodbye. I walked 'her' along then 'she' told that 'she' can go alone, but I did not do as 'she' say, instead, I walked 'her' home along listening to what I'd missed out in 'her' life. I felt great in my heart about that walk, even though it's a short distance. Then come to the departing moment when reach 'her' block and I gave 'her' guitar back; to confess, that moment, I really felt like giving 'her' a big hug, showing 'her', I do treasure 'her' accompany along my Walk.
That's still the stumbling block which I find it very hard to overcome.
Agape.