-Transmission-
Location: At home
After CG meeting, the time is around 9.45pm. Was held at a member's house in Jurong West.(First time) So everyone have a short walk to the Boon Lay MRT station. It was quite a short distance walk there, but I'm glad during the journey, I can minister to a member, whose 'thinking'(no other words to discrible) is simple minded and a straight forward guy, I say. I get to know some of his own troubles and so, but I felt that whenever I try to give him a council or advice, his expression shows no interest on it. Maybe he'd is like that, but I don't believe so.
Then I'd receive sms from JF to confirm the number of brothers for the 'IPPT' training. After that, we moved on to take the train back to each of our respective towns. Then suddenly my I heard a voice, telling me to take the NS line home. I'd just follow it, but when I got to asked around on whose taking the NS line, only 3 people taking the line: 2 Sisters and 1 brother (which I mention earlier in my statment.)
So I start to worry if there is a need to watch out on him (My mind always hear the voice what Isaac always remind me to do, keep watch on him.) So I'd just do so then JF start to give a 'joking' argument, "Oi, bui steady." (No flow.) Well I just went over to take the NS line. That's all I say now.
When I step out that door, suddenly there is a comfort in my heart, maybe it because go along so that he can bug on me rather than to the sisters. Or maybe she's on that train as well, and I feel much more safer sending her home after last week 'misunderstanding' Sat incident. (well it's personal stuff.) ha ha ha... Well that's me, a bit sensitive to matters, but also want to bear any responsiblity if anything happens.
So things does come true... well the brother 'buged' at me rather than the sisters, well better to do so, but I really pray that God will give me the wisdom so that I can really speak straight into his heart on things.
After one of the sisters drop off the train, left me, her and he (that brother) So in my mind, I was thinking that what can I 'grab' her attention or so, but not really that. Just want to really have a good chat with her, but between us now is just a step away and a brother beside me. He'd been talking with me also of the bad things that happen to him and I gave him the council that he might need, but yet he'd does not seem to show a heart to listen to what I'm trying to say. Maybe he'd still have the 'child' 's thought in him, but still I'm trying to sort it through. (just somemore time.)
Instead, now then I realize, he's trying to hint me with another way: God is fooling him around, or trying to tell me God is not a good God or so...
He'd not been saying that so for once, but quite a few times. Truthfully, if you know who God is and how God is and also how you love God so much, then someone trys to talk bad about God in front of you, you really feel like giving him a tight slap on the face for saying so. (God forbids. All Judgement belong to God.)
Well when it the train almost reaches his stop, I'd ask if he'd going to leave the for the station, so he said nope. Well then I'd ask him why. Then he say, he want to come with me to send her home. (Well it have been quite often and automatic, when sometimes I take the NS line, I would sent her home, when I have time. But I believe it's not going to be so in the near future.)
So I'd ask him if he is sure. (Don't need two brothers to sent one sister home isn't it? or is it two is better than one?) he'd just insist to come along. Then I'd asked him if he have enough funds to travel home. Well he said yes, more than enough and just top it up.
But today, I felt very upset with him, cuz he said he won't be coming for the outreach and Saturday 'IPPT' training by giving an 'excuse': my traveling funds not enough... When I overheard that conversation on phone from JF, immediately, I felt like wanting going to war or so... Cuz I remember he said that thursday, he have more than enough funds... What the.... it really turn me off really, I got to confess.
Too continue... then I'd try to ask him if he have morning lesson, then he said yes, so I tried to ask him to go home early to have a good rest preparing for tomorrow, but he still insist on doing so. (I'd really got to confess that I'd really have not have a good chat with her since last Sat. Not a good thing to do so.)
So that's how that day after CG meeting goes. 'We' 'd finally sent her home, but really thank God that I did step to the NS line, cuz he's words are really very 'offensive' towards people, but I believe that God change do a change in that. All things are possible through Christ Jesus. So ya guys out there watch out for a good testimony when the CGm's did it by changing his live around with God's help. Amen.